I think to myself how bullshit it all is. My problems are small yet affect my entirety. Loving someone shouldn’t cause so much grief; you shouldn’t have to feel torment or repercussions for what truly makes you happy. In my case it’s love for an ex girlfriend. The pull that these old emotions have are far too drastic and empowered for something that’s far too minimal in comparison and yet they have the first say and pull on my everyday choices, future choices, choices I make for the good of you and choices that I make to purposefully contradict you.

It’s a shame that I never feel truly free; and if I do, I only feel free for mere moments in the life time of my thoughts of you. I think about how you most definitely do not feel or think the same in my regards. Why else would this love be separated to begin with? Tell me what in this world is so important or worth casting away a servant bound by never ending love? To me it is one of the most fiendish of betrayals. 

So in my regards, if you ever read this just know it is why I choose to not see you anymore, I choose to not communicate with you, I choose to cut you off to be left behind along with parts of my left that should best be forgotten.